The #BigRead13 Day 20
You can find day 20’s post from the #BigRead13 here.
2 Timothy 1:7 today:
For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice, but rather a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline.
Today’s excerpt from The Horse and His Boy has Bree telling the Hermit that slavery is all he’s good for, and the Hermit saying that no, as long as he knows he’s nobody very special, he’ll be a very decent sort of horse.
We’re asked to think on this as we read the reading from 2 Timothy. How to view these together? Sometimes we have to brave enough to admit to not being brave – and that can be the hardest of all. Sometimes we need to not be a coward, but be self-disciplined.
This isn’t something I’m very good at. I’m very good at being self-denigrating. Putting myself down. And genuinely believing my own bad press. No, I don’t think it is attractive. No, I don’t think it secretly makes people like me more. No, I don’t think it makes people say “no, no, Richard, on the contrary…”. Those who don’t know me probably believe it; those that do are probably hurt by it.
So… perhaps a spirit of humility, but of recognising that I am loved by God – and if I am loved by God, then I can’t be all bad, can I?
Lord, help me to see how much you love me, and how much you love all of us. Help me to realise that each of us has our gifts to use in your service; mine are no better or worse than anybody else’s – you love us all.